and I am afraid you will all be disappointed..... nothing, nada, zilch, not even a card.... so in that respect it has been just like any other valentine's day lol!!
'rents have a theory that it would be too risky for Bert to rock up with anything for the big V day given that he is well known and his business thrives on his reputation OR maybe we have all been reading it wrong and he is not really interested at all....... I will leave that for you to decide.
Toss pot has offered to take Little D for an extra night a fortnight to try and give me a bit more time and, I have agreed to actually ask him if I need him to cover. He has made the valid point that he can't actually help if he does not know I need help. I will give him that.
The someone he is seeing is someone from work, if I was cynical and suspicious I may think it was going on before he left but he swears not and I am inclined to believe it. He also says he had no feelings for said person before he left, this, I am less inclined to believe. I suspect it might have been the final push and you know what, I am OK with that, I get it. For him to feel anything for someone else means we were not right and we both had a responsibility to our relationship. I don't like it, but I get it and I don't hold it against him. It's funny how far you can come as an adult and how even when the most painful thing ever can happen to you, that you can keep your head and your balance and the right level of perspective. I don't generally have a lot of nice things to say about myself but on this one, I am superior being and I will continue to be superior.
And by being amazing and superior being I will tell myself he does not know what he has let go....
Now I have massive respect for all stay at home mums, it was never something I could have or would have done. Quite probably the hardest job in the world, it is just constant.
I also have massive respect for working parents, I was thinking about what I have on over the next couple of days and it goes something like this:
So today I started work at 8am, went to train 12 - 1, worked
until 5.30, picked up Little D, fed her, bathed her, did some
washing, changed all the bedding in the house, made her packed lunch for
tomorrow, sorted my dinner and the dishes, now working on my presentation
for the session tomorrow, ready to get up at 6, leave the house at
7.15 (after getting Little D ready), dropping her at holiday club, driving
180 miles to Cambridge, doing presentation, networking lunch,
driving back from Cambridge to pick her up all before 6.30, get home,
feed her, get her into bed, get packed lunch ready, do some shopping,
more work etc etc before going to bed tomorrow and starting again on
Thursday when I have to take her 20 miles out of my way to my auntie who
is looking after her on Thursday.........relentless springs
to mind.
I am thinking of that Michael McIntyre sketch (you may have seen it), something along the lines of people who don't have children and think that they would like to have children because they know what it would be like..... you think you know, you think you know, but really you don't, really you have no idea..... yes, it certainly is a bit like that. (if you have not seen this then you really should, I was crying laughing)
So massive respect to all parents working or otherwise......
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